i have nothing, if i dont love you.

I dedicate this song to the them.

to my beloved abah and mak, i have nothing if i dont have both of you..my love for both of you will never fade away. if you really can read my blog, i want both of you to know that im so afraid of losing you. eventhough i hardly kissed you or see u, but believe me..on top of everything i achieved or will achieve, you guys inspired me too much..and to my dearest abah, i will never ever see any other guys that can compared with you..u r the strongest person i have ever met..mum should be grateful to have you. i really need you to be the one who gonna tie the knot for me with my future husband.(i hope that All ah listen to my pray).

Hana loves both of you so much. Im willing to die in order to make both of you happy...thanks for the love, kindness and encouragement that u guys had given to me..

Sayang abah ngan mama.

Share my life, take me for what I am
Coz I'll never change all my colours for you
Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide


Well,don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me...
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you, you, you, you, you...

You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of your love mmmmm...
I never knew love like I've known it with you
Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
I Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
Your love I'll remember, forever

Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me...
I have nothing, nothing, nothing...

Well,don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me no...
Don't walk away from me
Don't you dare walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you

cest la vie KLASS CORP (M) SDN BHD

21st May 2008, I've glanced thru the newspaper, suddenly my eyes spotted onto something interesting - ADMIN ASSISTANT NEED URGENTLY - quickly I grabbed the phone and dialled the number. Check! - I went for the interview and the next day I became one of the employee of the said company. From a person with a zero knowledge I managed to adapt with the environment quickly. Although I didnt received something that maybe I can say not supposely to receive by the diploma holder, but I appreciate each moment and captured the experience as much as I could.

Now, almost a year, everybody in the company knows me well, they appreciate me, and always taking care of me, in order to sustain , i need to find a job that can provide me not only the benefit but all the experiences and skills that im looking for. Im very grateful when the new company accept me. It can be my stepping stone to reach my long term goals.
Insya Allah.

Im very sad to leave all of my office mates especially Rumitha. We have gone thru a lots of thing together. Its gonna be another unhappy ending story of me, but a good introduction to the next chapter of my life.

J aime KLASS CORP.

Senandung Maaf

Jam 1.30pg.

Aku pasrah. Mesej pertama yang diterima olehku pada hari ni benar2 membuatkan jiwaku bergetar.Ada nada cemas di dadaku bila ditanyakan soalan sebegitu. Wajarkah aku meneruskan hukuman ini ataupun berhentikan sampai disini.? Jauh disudut hatiku, sebak masih menyelubungi diri dengan apa yang terjadi tempoh hari. Sedih, marah, pilu, bosan, geram bermain-main dibenakku. Namun apakan daya, lumrah hidup manusia biasa, mudah alpa.
Perbualan melalui telefon sebentar tadi benar2 membuatkan aku tersentak..Ah mungkin ini balasannya bila aku lupa pada tanggungjawab dan peranan aku sebagai khalifah muka bumi ini.

Namun begitu, aku masih mampu berbangga kerana tidak sesekali pun menggunakan kekerasan untuk menyelesaikan pertelingkahan. Aku menjadi lebih tenang daripada biasa, malah setiap ungkapan yang dilafazkan benar2 keluar dari hati aku. Ya, inilah selama ini yang ke mahu bicarakan padanya..Jika sebelum ini lidahku kelu untuk berkata2, namun kali ini aku kumpulkan segala kekuatan yang ada untuk berbicara. Alhamdulilah, segalanya sudah selesai. Aku bersyukur, aku masih bersama si dia.

Beberapa hari kebelakangan ini, kerap kali aku terfikirkan, apakah yang telah aku lakukan untuk diriku sendiri. Sejenak aku berfikir. Tiada. Aku mula merasa sayu, bila memikirkan betapa lalainya aku kepada cinta hingga lupa tanggungjawab aku yang sebenar2 nya. Atas sifat kesedaran itu, aku bertekad akan merubah..memberi keutamaan pada diriku, keluargaku dan
perananku dan pada masa yang sama terus terusan mencintai dan menyayangi dirinya.

Peristiwa pahit ini, mungkin akan menjadi tanda peringatan bagiku supaya lebih berhati-hati dalam setiap tindak tandukku. Ya, benar. Aku menyesal dengan kata2ku tempoh hari, namun jauh di dasar hatiku menyatakan setiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikamh disebaliknya. Jadi mengapa perluku ku gusar? Aku berterima kasih pada yang Maha Esa. Kerana dikaulah aku mampu melakukannya.

Amin

anny-burst-sary

1st April 2009

I have been waiting for the eve but unfortunately, i overslept and forget to wish Fairul, but what i did was, returned his call around 2.00am but he was asleep. Just 2 or 3 words then we hanged up.As simple as that.Things has changed rapidly.

8.30pm
I did asked him for a pause + i tried so hard not to send the msg but deep inside my heart im totally sad+ i dont know why i acted like that.im clueless.

I pray hard that he would forgive me.

Sorry.